I’m torn between being vain enough to want to know what people think are elements of my “signature style” and not wanting to let such knowledge unduly influence my future work.
SizeCon 2020 is happening, Feb 15-16 in Piscataway, NJ. (No, you didn’t miss SizeCon 2019; the organizers couldn’t find an economically-priced venue.)
I’ve never been (too far away), but I’ve heard several very moving testimonials from those who have attended.
This post is proximally in reply to this comment by Aborigen, but it obviously is the result of many years of observation, rumination, self-recrimination, and determination. I cannot emphasize enough that these are my personal feelings and experiences, and the last thing I want is to assert that they are somehow generally representative of even most hetmale size fantasists, let alone everyone in the community. To be frank, this is more of a personal journal entry than a public comment, but over the years I have seen and heard things that resonate with my thoughts on these subjects, and so I’m going to digress all over the place in the hope that it might help someone somewhere deal with their own feelings and experiences.
I never expected my Tumblr journey to last so long or assume as much importance to me as it did. If I had known at the beginning how the following 45 months would play out, I’m quite sure I wouldn’t have started down this road. Nonetheless, I don’t regret a thing.